Ivy J Crudup

Misunderstood Ivy J Crudup

This book gives vivid examples of how anxiety impaired my life such as this. One night I fell right asleep. When I woke there was a movie on about when the lights went out in New York. One scene of the movie became intense showing people looting and fighting. A young man was running up the stairs towards his apartment when a man grabbed him by his foot. As he was climbing the stairs the man began stabbing him. I grew upset and emotional because the young man resembled my oldest son. I sensed my anxiety level rising again. For some reason, I glanced out the window and watched as it was getting darker. It was not a voice but more of an insinuation, "We're coming in there as soon as it gets dark!" My eyes circled the house and I engaged in urgent prayer. I was able to calm myself. "This has got to be my imagination," I thought. I continued watching the remainder of the movie. About an hour later I glanced out the window again. "I heard it repeat, "We're just waiting until it gets dark, then we're coming in to kill you!" At that point, I became paranoid and grabbed the phone to phone my cousin.